I wanted to run and hide!!
(Image by Ben Hershey)
I told you I was nervous to do the 21-day livestream for the first time.
But what I didn’t tell you is that,
There was one point in this experience that I felt so exposed and vulnerable I wasn’t sure I could go through with it.
I mean, it was bad enough that it was all new and I’d never done this before, but then on top of it I was being SEEN while I practiced and messed up repeatedly … oh man it was tough.
I thought about just stopping. I imagined saying, “Sorry, I can’t do this.” and walking away – but I couldn’t see any easy or graceful way out. I’d committed to doing it.
Besides, the truth was that I did actually want to do it, I was just so scared.
I’ve been thinking about how I used my If I Loved Myself tools to get through it and how much that helped me face my fears.
I know many of us are facing scary things we’ve never had to face before, so I decided to make a little movie about my journey – to review and laugh at myself a little bit and to offer it as an example that it’s possible to survive terror in a self-loving way.
I’m hoping it will make us all a little braver.
Watch my movie to see how I got through my fear and how you can also get through whatever scary things you are facing in your life.
I hope you find it helpful.