“Am I being sleazy?” is my fearful thought as I write this.
“To be honest, you don’t really sound like you lately” one precious person told me.
I know she wants the best for me and I’m grateful for her honesty.
The problem is, I agree with her and it makes me feel uncomfortable.
You see this loving yourself thing is getting clearer and stronger within me and it’s starting to burn in a new way.
It’s a time of change and chaos and wide-spread fear, and I feel quite urgent to let people know that we have exquisite guidance available at every moment. That we are never really alone. That we can tune into our own wise truth to make our decisions.
So I’ve been studying some marketing to see how I can share it with you in the way that will serve best.
But as I do what the People-Who-Know say I should do, it doesn’t feel good. In fact I feel sleazy. Salesy. I’m terrified of sounding fake and sleazy. It’s not me!!
I feel distressed about not being me.
And what’s even worse, is that I’m doing this PUBLICLY!
You are watching me as I make my messes and figure my voice out. And it’s making some of you uncomfortable too!
I mean, you can SEE when I’m being sleazy or not myself and now someone even said it to me out loud so I can’t even try to tell myself it’s only my fear!
I’m facing a whole new level of trying to listen to my truth, in a whole new arena. Which is cool. But so embarrassing and uncomfortable to do it in front of you all.
What can I do?
What can any of us do when we’re trying something new and not doing it well yet?
When others can SEE we are messing up. When we look uncool and embarrass ourselves and people click on Unsubscribe?
Well, for me, the Love question always saves the day.
If I loved myself what would I do now?
If I loved myself I’d just be proud of what I’ve done so far and smile kindly on myself. I’d cheer myself on as I mess up and try to feel out what’s right for me and what exactly is beginning to burn its way out from the center of me.
I’d know it’s time to overcome my fears and doubts so that I can speak this out in any way I can. To not be perfect.
And who CARES if you are all watching me as I make my messes and figure my voice out?! (Well I really do care but I’m learning to love myself through that).
Because loving yourself is about giving yourself permission to try. It’s about speaking kindly to yourself as you mess things up sometimes. It’s cheering yourself on when you embarrass yourself or promote yourself sleazily and cringe afterwards.
It’s saying to yourself, “It’s ok. You’re doing great. Just keep going. Just keep taking steps. No-one learns gracefully. And you are here to learn, not to be perfect and impressive for everyone else.”
So do us both a favour.
Click reply to this mail and WRITE DOWN what you are trying to figure out at the moment and feel like you’re doing it messily?
Then ask the love question and write down the answer you get and SEND IT TO ME.
Because when you give something words and express it to someone else, it makes it more real. It strengthens your answer.
I promise to keep it confidential and I’ll answer your email with something encouraging and personal.
And you know that I’ll understand because I’m doing the same thing. So I’ll just be joining in loving you and cheering you on.
So let’s do this! Let’s love ourselves as we learn.
Click reply NOW.
What are you learning right now and if you loved yourself, what would you do now?
Go on, click n’ type and send to me. You can do it. It’s a loving gift to yourself.
I look forward to hearing your learning.